Limitations.,

I came up against my limits today.

Back pain became severe. Not complete disability, but verrrry close.

I know the warning signs. The signals that tell me if I push one more inch, I will be completely wrecked.

So, I asked for help. It was terrible asking for help at the last minute. I can’t predict when my back will be out, so there’s no way to give advanced notice that I will be unable to perform my Seva.

I should have known by 8 AM, because, this morning I was basically in hell.

SO much pain. Blinding pain.

I took medicine, did yoga, did some physical maneuvers, and got better enough to go get flowers.

After that, though, I was wrecked. I knew I had hit my limit.

So, I took the day off. Thankfully my dear friend Sripad Madhav Maharaj was willing to fill in for me at the last minute. Oof !

This body is so limiting. My condition, it strikes randomly. Granted, I’ve been doing extra Seva lately. However, This was not cool. Not at all. Ugh.

So,this is why I am relying on donations to get by. I have decided to commit myself fully to the Ashram, and have no time or ability to pursue employment. I hope you can understand that.

Tomorrow will be another busy day, I hope I get thru it alright.

Thanks for following this blog, it means a lot to me.

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